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An Update

So, I fell off the bandwagon when it came down to keeping myself accountable. After the last post, I just realized how each day was becoming a cheat day, and I was just getting really discouraged and unmotivated to keep track of everything. It wasn’t that I fell off right away, there was a week where I had to go out to buy another tank to work out in because I ran out of tanks to wear to go work out in. My lowest weight at one point was 118.0 or was it 117.6? One of the two, I may have just had that second number in my head for no reason.

But since all that, stress has come and it appears to stay. I’m a stress eater. Not to mention, if I’m in stress mode for long enough, I get into this depressed mode. Depressed eating is even worse than stress eating. Depressed mode is where I eat and I don’t even care that I’m eating.

All in all, I feel pretty crappy as of right now. I’m not sure if I’m bloated or I’m gaining back the weight and everything. All I can say is that I AM NOT A HAPPY CAMPER. I need to go back to clean eating, monitoring what I eat, limiting what I eat. It didn’t help that I just bought another box of those snack packages of Oreos, the ones where there’s 6 cookies in a pouch. OREOS ARE SO GOOD THOUGH!

I need to go back to going out to the gym again, spend time there, but then now a days I’m so tired. Tired enough that I can pass out for 2-3 hours for a nap and then go back to sleep later on. But I also haven’t been sleeping very well, waking up around 6 regardless of what time I went to bed (even if it’s 3:30am) and then waking up every hour since. I realize that I have a lot of things to do, and time is running out! Which makes me not want to go to the gym even more.

But no excuses. I can’t let myself keep making these excuses. I made a promise to myself, I gifted myself better health for my birthday. That is what I need to work towards. I did decide that once I hit 115, I was going to bake a tiramisu cake from scratch to celebrate though? I know it’s counter intuitive, but tiramisu is my absolute favorite cake/dessert there is out there and I can eat it all day if I didn’t have to face all the unpleasant consequences.

In any case, I’ll post my “new” starting weight again, and start this journey all over again, tomorrow morning first thing so I’m more consistent with when I measure my weight. At first you don’t succeed, try and try again right? Eventually I’ll get down to what I want to get to. 

In terms of food, I’m refraining from going to the store unless I need to. It’s going to be a creative adventure that may or may not be clean to just eat all the food that I have laying around in my kitchen. Tonight I made a Thai Curry Soup, and for dessert I made chè xanh (a Vietnamese dessert soup with mung bean and coconut milk).

And I need to start writing out my to do lists again, otherwise things get forgotten or never done. So unfortunately, this is where that bit of information will be jotted down as well. So I apologize in advance.


[Day 19: Standstill]

I have no motivation to go to the gym today. I’m just tired and I want to go to sleep all day. Oye. Managed to sort of work out, got my heart rate up for a little bit before I just didn’t want to work out anymore. I find it funny that I’m more into working out when I’m at the gym than when I’m at home following fitness DVDs or YouTube videos. What counts is that I did something at least right?

I feel that I’m always so friggin’ lazy when I have days off at home. I think a new goal for myself is to get out of bed and stay out of bed until it’s bedtime. But it’s so comfortable to lay around bed all day when I can. Sleep sounds amazing right now, despite the fact that it’s only 7:18pm.

I’m also really bad at estimating how many calories I’ve consumed, and given today’s lunch was an all you can eat buffet, and I ate two plates where I had a small spoon of delicious Indian food, of everything there (they only had one bar set up). I really can’t tell how much I ate in terms of calories, but I figured I’ll just initiate intermittent fasting this way and not eat again until tomorrow around 12. So I guess 24 hour fasting period is the way to go. Maybe.

[The Numbers]

  • Weight: 122.0
  • Water Intake: 300 mL at the restaurant, 750 mL at by 7:30pm, 750 mL by 9pm, 750 mL by 11 pm
  • Workout Time: 30 minutes of Cardio Hip Hop, and like 4 minute of this YouTube abs workout routine

[The Meal Plan]

  • Breakfast: skipped – i was tired and slept up until lunch time
  • Lunch: two plates of an all you can eat Indian buffet – had a little bit of everything since it was my first time eating indian food
  • Snack: 1 granny smith apple

[Day 18: It Begins!]

Birthday extravaganza now begins! Let’s hope that at least I won’t gain weight. Oye…

[The Numbers]

  • Weight: 121.4 pounds
  • Water Intake: 750 mL by 10am, 750 mL by 1pm, 750 mL by 9:30pm, 750 mL by midnight = 3000 mL
  • Workout Time: None – got out of clinic an hour later than expected

[The Meal Plan]

  • Breakfast: 1 granny smith apple
  • Lunch: 6″ Subway sandwich, tuscan chicken with italian bread, provolone cheese, lettuce, tomatoes, cucumbers, spinach, olives, pickles, and buffalo sauce
  • Dinner: Teppanyaki hibachi-style with fried rice, lobster, filet mignon, and shrimp with veggies (zucchini and mushrooms)
  • Dessert: Ice Cream Cake

[Day 17: Meal Planning]

Today’s been one of those weird days, I didn’t quite feel like going to the gym. Which I know I’m going to regret already since I can’t really go to the gym tomorrow since I have dinner plans with everyone. I did do a bit of this cardio dance hip hop DVD that I got yesterday at Best Buy for $5 though (I had coupons). Did that, almost worked up a sweat but then dinner was ready and I was starving… sorta.

I was starving then in the process of putting together my Spicy Cabbage and Chicken salad (gỏi gà) to eat for a later date, I sort of lost my appetite. I wanted to make it because I didn’t want the chicken I bought to just be laying around. Then again, the chicken that I had thawed in my fridge was laying around, so I figured I’d make a dinner out of it (the thawed chicken not the one for the salad). So that is why I ate, this afternoon the foil packet consisted of an entire chicken breast and some veggies, but tonight it was more veggies and some chicken. I cut the thawed chicken breast in half and made two foil packets out of it. The second foil packet will be lunch tomorrow, maybe.

I’m trying to plan out my meals tomorrow so that I won’t over eat. Going out to get me some hibachi tomorrow night for my birthday with a group of friends. We’re celebrating early, just to accommodate everyone’s schedule. Then I have an Indian buffet to go to on Saturday for lunch with another friend who can’t make it tomorrow night. I’ve never actually had Indian food before, so a buffet to try a little of everything (then of course not know what I like or don’t like because I rarely look at the labels). Then finally, I have dinner with my roommate and her mom at a Thai restaurant on Monday night.

The dieter in me doesn’t want to eat, but the foodie in me is like “OMG FOOD!!!” So I just gotta plan smart with how much I eat and know when I should stop eating (particularly with the buffet). This week has been a rough week I think, in terms of weight, I’m still not back at Monday’s weight yet. But I’m slowly climbing down… I hope. This whole Diet Bet is now making me nervous, but hey, after Monday, I can diet to my heart’s content. I’m also going to have a lot of leftovers to last me at least until half way though the week if I eat right.

[The Numbers]

  • Weight: 122.0 pounds
  • Water Intake: 750 mL by 10am, 750 mL by 1pm, 750 mL by 9:30pm, 750 mL by midnight = 3000 mL
  • Workout Time: 20 minute Cardio Hip-Hop

[The Meal Plan]

  • Breakfast: 1 slim fast bottled smoothie and 1 granny smith apple
  • Lunch: Foil packet with chicken, onions, zucchini, tomatoes, baby bella mushrooms, and pesto
  • Dinner: Foil packet with chicken, onions, zucchini, tomatoes, baby bella mushrooms, and pesto
  • Snack: 1 granny smith apple when I got home, one teaspoonful of peanut butter with a couple of dark chocolate chips for dessert

[Day 12: Cheat Day]

Oye, today was definitely a cheat day in terms of my usual food routine/diet. The weather was gloomy, misting rain, and slightly chilly, which meant it was perfect weather for Hot Pot. So I spontaneously called out a friend and we went down to Boston to get some at 8pm. Man was it worth it. However, I feel like it’s a lot more food at one time than I’ve been used to the last two weeks. My stomach was uncomfortably full, but unfortunately the Hot Pot was too good to pass up, and you can’t doggie bag Hot Pot. It just doesn’t work that way.

Next weekend’s even going to be worse, given that it’s my birthday weekend. Already planned is a Hibachi dinner on Friday night with a group of friends, and then on the Monday following I’m going out to try this new Thai place nearby with my roommate and her mom to celebrate my birthday then. Gotta just stay on track on the other days.

[The Numbers]

  • Weight: 122.2 lbs
  • Water Intake:  300 mL by noon, 750 mL by 1:30pm, 750 mL by end of work out, 500 mL of hojicha green tea, 500 mL of water during dinner = 2800 mL
  • Workout Time: 50 minutes on the elliptical (398.7 calories)

[The Meal Plan]

  • Breakfast:one 100-calorie English muffin with peanut butter and honey
  • Post-Workout Snack: one clementine, one serving of Chobani’s Vanilla Greek Yogurt with 1/4 cup of Bare Naked Fit Triple Crunch Berry Granola
  • Lunch: one slice of my roommate’s “homemade pizza” – crust made of whole grain, toppings include kale, yellow squash, tomatoes, marinara sauce, meatless sausage, asparagus, onions, and hardly any cheese
  • Dinner: Asian Hot Pot at Shabu Zen – I got the surf and turf (lamb and a plate of assorted seafood – salmon, some white fish, scallops, fish cake, squid, mini octopus) with a plate of veggies (bak choy, napa cabbage, enoki mushroom, king mushroom, some other button mushroom, tomato, carrot, tofu) in a Spicy Szechuan Broth, with a small rice bowl of udon noodles
  • Dessert: Kung Fu Milk Tea‘s Bubble Milk Green Tea with boba

[Day 9: Trying Something Different]

After the increase in weight from last time, I got really discouraged and started to try and analyze what I’ve been doing wrong. By decreasing my usual intake and exercising consistently in the last week there should have been some sort of decrease in weight by the time the one week mark came around. Unfortunately, the week mark came around it and it appears as though I gained a pound. However, this morning I dropped down to 122 pounds, which is a decrease from the week mark, which is sort of progress compared to the weights of the last two days. I wish my weight didn’t fluctuate so much. I weigh myself at the same time every day when I do record a weight though. First thing in the morning, naked as I’m waiting for the water for my morning shower to warm up.

In any case, I spent a few hours last night just browsing the internet to see if there was anything that I was doing wrong, or if I needed to do something differently. In the end, everything is inconclusive. All I got out of it was that as a petite female, this whole weight loss thing is potentially a lost cause since I’m genetically engineered to maintain my fat storage, and my petite size makes it difficult for dietary modifications without putting my body into starvation mode. Sounds great, huh?

Another thing I found is that cardio workouts aren’t that effective as weight training exercises, because you don’t get as much bang for your buck in terms of calories burned. At least that’s the belief of one of the sources I found. I have been doing some weight training, but it’s more strength training than actually working out with weights. It was an upper arm strength routine that the personal trainer at the gym I go to gave me when I came in for a free consultation. I never really thought of weight training as a big calorie burner, it just seems counterintuitive. I mean, with cardio work outs I feel my body working extra hard (lots of sweat and increased heart rate). For weight training, I usually find myself thinking “Ughhh this is heavy. Arghhh my knees are shaking. I can do this!”

I also made the mistake of walking down the dieting aisle at Wegmans when I stopped by to get some almond butter packets. I’ve never had it before so I wanted to try it out before I commit to an entire jar of it (99 cents for a packet). Being a pharmacist to be, I’m very skeptical with any sort of dieting pills, and in terms of dietary modifications for weight loss I have the general gist of it from my semester of Nutrition (3500 calories = 1 pound! Lose 1-2 pounds a week and that’s considered healthy weight loss). I started to look at the SlimFast stuff, and I caved. I ended up buying a 4 pack of the shake and a box that contained 5 of their meal bars. We’ll see how that goes. I suppose I could have gone with the actual can of shake powder, but I feel like I’m betraying my roommate when I do that since she has a side business selling nutritional shakes. I might ask her about it, but I have a feeling it’s $49.99 for a month’s supply provided that I have 1 shake a day. I’m also not quite sure if I’m a fan of the single flavor that they have right now, granted you can add things into the shake to flavor it more.

I guess I’m impatient, and after a week with no results, I’m changing things up again. I’m not entirely sure if I’m changing too many things too fast, or anything along those lines. But I feel like I need to initiate some sort of change, because I’m not getting desired results. In any case, I figured I’d just use up the Slim Fast stuff I have right now and see how that goes in the next week. I’m not doing what they say I should do, but I’ll just use it to replace a meal or something for now. I don’t think I can handle going with what they wanted me to do: three snacks, two SlimFast meals, and one 500-calorie meal.

I also looked into the whole weight training bit, and I found the Rebel Fitness Guide on NerdFitness.com. After reading the many pages of their ebooks, I really do believe in their philosophy and in theory it should work for a person like me. Who knows? So that’s going to be the commitment of the week, ready to start the Rookie Workout Guide later today once I get my glasses made and shove some food inside of me. I forgot that I was going to do that, and despite my breakfast I’m starving at 12:30pm.

[The Numbers]

  • Weight: 122.0 pounds
  • Water Intake:  500 mL by 8am, 750 mL by 11am, 750 mL by 2pm, 500 mL during lunch, 973 mL decaffinated green tea
  • Workout Time: 30 minutes weight training, 30 minutes raquetball

[The Meal Plan]

  • Breakfast: one 100-calorie English muffin with peanut butter and honey, 1 soft-boiled egg
  • Lunch: two sushi rolls
  • Dinner: 1 spicy Italian chicken sausage (140), 1/4 cup red smashed potatoes from Wegmans (~80), 1 box of steamed Brussels sprouts in butter (120)

[Day 7: eh?]

I thought I was supposed to losing weight. Not gaining weight. I swear my caloric intake has been restricted, I’ve been working out more than I have been in the past. In fact, I wasn’t working out at all before in the past asides from the random spurts where I go “GYM TIME!” then a week later you won’t see me step near a gym. I find that this is just really frustrating, and I’m not getting any of the results that I’ve been wanting to achieve. Not even the weight loss bit. I’m highly discouraged and I don’t know what to do. UGH.

I’m definitely sore all over right now because of that insanity workout video though. It hurts to move, and walking up the stairs is a KILLER. After the work out today, I think it’s even worse. It hurts to walk. Oye. I forgot that I am predisposed with tight calves in the first place.

[The Numbers]

  • Weight: 125.2 lbs
  • Water Intake:  750 mL by 11:30am, 750 mL by 1pm, 750 mL by end of workout, 300 mL by bedtime = total water intake 2750 mL
  • Workout Time: 30 minutes in the weight room, 35 minutes on the treadmill (2 miles out of it, but I pushed myself to run more this time – I can do a straight 2 minutes at 6 mph now, compared to the 30 seconds at that rate last week), and 60 minutes playing raquetball by myself = total work out time 125 minutes

[The Meal Plan]

  • Breakfast: 1 granny smith apple, 1 serving of mozzarella with red roasted tomatoes from Wegmans
  • Lunch: bánh bèo (a Vietnamese dish consisting of mini rice pancakes topped with green onions and chopped dried shrimp), and two clementines
  • Dinner: cháo vịt (duck congee) – it’s the last of it!
  • Snack: 4 clementines – they’re so delicious!!!

PS. Just for the record, my duck congee only used 2 cups of rice which lasted me 5 meals. Most of what I ate was the cliantro, scallions, and bean sprouts I mixed into the congee so it was more like congee mixed in with the veggies.