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Time Just Flies….

I’m finishing up my last week of intermediate rotations (two more 10 hour shifts to go), and time has definitely gone by without hesitation. In my last post, I was just getting ready to wrap up P1 year to move back home for three months. Now I only have a month left in CO before I move back to MA.

Since moving out of my parents’ home in 2009, I’ve definitely become more tolerating and my patience has grown to a greater extent. In the past, I’d lash out and argue whenever something didn’t sit well with me when it came from my parents. Now I simply take it as it is, and try and look for that something behind all of those words to realize their true intent. Sure I still don’t agree with them on a lot of matters, but living at home (without access to my own independent method of transportation nonetheless) for the last two months has been a lot better than I thought. I still don’t think I’d do it when I try to move back to CO after I graduate, but you never know. I might be just crazy enough to try and pay off my student loans the first year or two after graduating.

Come October, I’ll be having a lot of free time. No access to a car to go around town with, but plenty of access to the internet. This can be a good or a bad thing. I do want to venture out and do other things. Who knows, I might pull out that old bike of mine. There’s so much that I want to do with myself, but I always seem to pull back and end up being the usual recluse.

I keep making lists of things I want to do, and I always seem to fail at following through with them. Maybe this will be the time that’s different than all of the rest. Hopefully?

NaNoWriMo: I know it starts in November, but hey I’ll be neck deep in Pharmacology, Pharmacotherapeutics, and whatever class I have. A six week semester is super short so I hear, and it’ll be super rough. So since I have October to my self without any impending distractions, maybe I’ll just do my own little NaNoWriMo thing. I miss writing, and I haven’t written anything since NaNo ’10.

Working Out: I swore I saw my recreation center pass/id card the other day when I was moving things around to find a book to read. To my knowledge I still have 20 punches to get into the rec center that’s only a mile away from my parents’ place. I can go there via bike and enjoy some time to myself that’s not at home. I’m going to develop a severe case of bumitis if I can’t get out of this house for the next month when I have absolutely nothing to do. I want to get back into the workout groove too, and perhaps this will help me ease into it when I’m back in Woo-town?

Couponing: it’s that time again. I’ll be off on my own, unable to bum off of my parents’ groceries towards the end of October, so I might as well scout out for the good coupons for stuff that I can use when I’m back in MA. Those coupons really do help. I kept record of how much I saved over Summer semester when I started to do this couponing thing and it was a hefty amount. Sure it’s not an extreme amount like those fanatical women who are into extreme couponing. But hey, a dollar saved is another dollar I can spend on more food…

Coming up with a Game Plan: I want to become a better person. So as a result, to get to that point I should aim to do things that I want to achieve… if that makes any sense at all. I guess that’s why I’m writing this list, so I can get things done. (I’ve always been a list-maker.) So is that a bit extreme? Writing a to-do list with ‘writing a to do list’ as one of the tasks? I guess I just need to stop and think about where I want to be in life when all this is over, and figure out the steps that it’ll take to get there. Of course, school might get in the way again like I said so before. But, I shouldn’t let that stop me from trying.

Eating Better: for the past two months, eating has been a horrendous thing. Either I’d binge or I’d forgo eating entirely. Which is almost a complete 180 from how things were the three months prior to that when I started to get into a better eating habit when I started to work out according to Insanity. (Maybe I should restart that? I said I would, but I never realized how exhausting rotations would be when you add in the commute to it.)

I guess those are really my own goals for the upcoming month of October. Until then, I have twenty more hours of rotation to put in within the next two days. Hurrah for my 12p-10p shifts at Walgreens! Hopefully it’ll be slow and I get to go home early or something along those lines.


Just A Little Advice

Sometimes I wonder if I’m making the right decisions or just going about things the way that my generation does it. It’s always nice to know when someone older (more experienced) than you can affirm your decisions and say that they believe that it’s the best decision for you.

If you guys didn’t know, I have a pretty dysfunctional family growing up, and I still do. Their actions and words in the past and present still affect me a lot, in more ways than I wish they would. Having an older figure to speak to and tell me that they’re proud of me, and that they think I’m phenomenal for achieving the things that I’ve managed to do thus far has been hard to come by because my parents never did it. As much as I try to have a high self-esteem, it’s hard sometimes when all my parents do is bring me down, saying all sorts of nasty things that are hurtful and harmful.

I had one of those good affirmation moments today though. I took my coworker from the restaurant out for lunch earlier today because she’s been dealing with a lot of issues, and as a friend taking her out to lunch was the least that I could do to help her ease off the stress. We were talking about everything that’s been going on lately, and it was nice talking to an older person. I feel more calm when thinking about what I’m going to be doing with myself.

I mean it could be the medication that the doctor gave me, but at the same time I don’t think it is. The medication was only to help me not be so compulsive. Moving out to Massachusetts for pharmacy school doesn’t sound that scary anymore. It’ll just be a two year 10 month adventure where the end is yet to be announced. As much as I’m still waiting to hear back from Colorado, I feel that it doesn’t matter anymore. My decision has been made, and if I ever were to choose Colorado after this moment it’d be more because it’s considered a “safe” school since it’s so close to home and all things familiar (my family, my friends, the city, etc).

Personally, I think it’s time for me to branch out and try something completely new. There’s no need to hold back anymore, to hesitate from living my life. Everything that I could possibly want for this very moment I have achieved. I’m doing things. I’m independent. I’m accomplished.

Most importantly, I’m finally able to be who I want to be. Not that person that everyone else wants me to be expects me to be.

It’ll be nerve wracking, but this journey called life will be well worth it in the end.

Signing off ~~~