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An Update

So, I fell off the bandwagon when it came down to keeping myself accountable. After the last post, I just realized how each day was becoming a cheat day, and I was just getting really discouraged and unmotivated to keep track of everything. It wasn’t that I fell off right away, there was a week where I had to go out to buy another tank to work out in because I ran out of tanks to wear to go work out in. My lowest weight at one point was 118.0 or was it 117.6? One of the two, I may have just had that second number in my head for no reason.

But since all that, stress has come and it appears to stay. I’m a stress eater. Not to mention, if I’m in stress mode for long enough, I get into this depressed mode. Depressed eating is even worse than stress eating. Depressed mode is where I eat and I don’t even care that I’m eating.

All in all, I feel pretty crappy as of right now. I’m not sure if I’m bloated or I’m gaining back the weight and everything. All I can say is that I AM NOT A HAPPY CAMPER. I need to go back to clean eating, monitoring what I eat, limiting what I eat. It didn’t help that I just bought another box of those snack packages of Oreos, the ones where there’s 6 cookies in a pouch. OREOS ARE SO GOOD THOUGH!

I need to go back to going out to the gym again, spend time there, but then now a days I’m so tired. Tired enough that I can pass out for 2-3 hours for a nap and then go back to sleep later on. But I also haven’t been sleeping very well, waking up around 6 regardless of what time I went to bed (even if it’s 3:30am) and then waking up every hour since. I realize that I have a lot of things to do, and time is running out! Which makes me not want to go to the gym even more.

But no excuses. I can’t let myself keep making these excuses. I made a promise to myself, I gifted myself better health for my birthday. That is what I need to work towards. I did decide that once I hit 115, I was going to bake a tiramisu cake from scratch to celebrate though? I know it’s counter intuitive, but tiramisu is my absolute favorite cake/dessert there is out there and I can eat it all day if I didn’t have to face all the unpleasant consequences.

In any case, I’ll post my “new” starting weight again, and start this journey all over again, tomorrow morning first thing so I’m more consistent with when I measure my weight. At first you don’t succeed, try and try again right? Eventually I’ll get down to what I want to get to. 

In terms of food, I’m refraining from going to the store unless I need to. It’s going to be a creative adventure that may or may not be clean to just eat all the food that I have laying around in my kitchen. Tonight I made a Thai Curry Soup, and for dessert I made chè xanh (a Vietnamese dessert soup with mung bean and coconut milk).

And I need to start writing out my to do lists again, otherwise things get forgotten or never done. So unfortunately, this is where that bit of information will be jotted down as well. So I apologize in advance.


[Day 14: Diet Bets]

Not going to lie. I sort of decided to take action and make this fitness month thanks the motivation provided by Shay Carl’s Shaytober. So I’m for sure determined that my ultimate goal is to be 110 pounds, I know that back when I was 115 pounds I still had the belly flab cause that’s how much I weighed growing up once I hit puberty. Given how my schedule can be erratic with new and upcoming rotation schedules, and how not all of them will be like my current one where I literally don’t do anything once I leave the clinic, I figured it’d be a reasonable goal to get to my goal weight by the end of 2013.

Why wait until January 1, 2014 to make efforts for a brand new body with great health goals? I feel like that’s an ongoing trend with me, I tend to decide things and just start right away. I did it last time in 2009, when I got a gym membership weeks before the start of the new year figuring I’d start now instead of waiting for when it’s “customary” to start.

However, given that I’m at my easy rotation until November 4, I decided to challenge myself even more. ShayCarl is doing this Diet Bet thing, which is what they call social dieting. $30 goes in to the pot, and when it ends if I lose 4% of my weight (4.8 pounds in my case), I get my $30 back and split the pot of the money of people who didn’t win. I’m poor, extra money is always nice. I’m already planning on losing the weight, so sure why not join?

I submitted my starting weight when I woke up earlier, and I weighed in at 121.2 pounds (had to have some clothes on for the pictures, which is why it varies from the weight posted on this blog). Ultimate weight  goal is 116.4 pounds by November 11th, I can do it! I haven’t weighed that much (little?) since right before I started college I think.

The diet bet starts tomorrow (October 15) and ends November 11! However, you can join up to 14 days late in the game (you just won’t get extra time). So come join me?!

Here’s my link if you want to join: http://diet.bt/1gcEgeP

[The Numbers]

  • Weight: 121.0 pounds
  • Water Intake:  750 mL by 2pm, 400 mL jasmine tea, 300 mL water at the restaurant, 750 mL after workout, 750 mL by 12:30am = 2950 mL
  • Workout Time: 50 minutes at the gym doing that elliptical thing. Kept my pace at 166-172 strides/minute for the majority of the time (better than last time where it was 158-162) on the same level of resistance

[The Meal Plan]

  • Breakfast: skipped cause I woke up late… again. I’m really bad at waking up early on weekends.
  • Lunch: 1 serving chicken-olive sauté (Recipe found on Prevention.com) with 1/4 cup of quinoa
  • Dinner: a little bit of go-green vegan fried rice and some Thai general vegan chicken dish, and some tofu, and then some taro sticky rice pudding thing (shared it with a friend)
  • Snack: 1 granny smith apple with fat free french vanilla yogurt fruit dip

[Day 5 & 6: Weekends Suck?]

I felt off all yesterday, I didn’t do anything but stay curled up in my bed. I woke up really late, then napped, and yeah. Overall, I didn’t do much just ate cháo vịt all day. It was so good. I’m going to be sad when I run out. I have enough for one more meal out of it.

I was too lazy to go to the gym today, so I decided to turn on the TV and do an episode of the Insanity workout. Man am I going to be sore. I wish I was more flexible than I currently am. Anyone have any recommendations to becoming more flexible?

It also seems that I’m gaining all that water weight I lost again. And by tomorrow, I highly doubt it will show that I lost any weight compared to the 123.6 lbs on day one. Why is it so hard for me to lose weight? I’ve added working out. I’m watching what I eat, small portions, etc. Why is this not going the way I want it to. I feel rather defeated at the moment.

I’m definitely lazier on the weekends. I sleep in a lot, I don’t eat as much. I also don’t drink as much water as I usually do during the week. Oye.

Stats for Day 6

[The Numbers]

  • Weight: 124.1 lbs
  • Water Intake:  750 mL by end of workout, 750 by bedtime
  • Workout Time: 45 minutes of Insanity

[The Meal Plan]

  • Breakfast: N/A – i woke up too late
  • Lunch: cháo vịt (duck congee)
  • Dinner:  bún thịt nướng (a Vietnamese cold rice vermicelli noodle dish topped with grilled pork, fresh herbs and vegetables)
  • Snack: N/A

[Day 2: Importance of Water]

Up to 60% of the human body is made up of water. Water does important things to the body such as flushing out toxins, hydrating your cells, maintaining intravascular volume so you can sufficiently transport blood and nutrients throughout the body, and even prevents constipation (that’s pretty much how Miralax works – draws water into the stool to loosen them up).

The Institute of Medicine determined that an adequate intake (AI) for men is roughly 3 liters (about 13 cups) of total beverages a day. The AI for women is 2.2 liters (about 9 cups) of total beverages a day. There’s an actual equation that you can use to calculate how much water you should be taking a day. I found one on SlenderKitchen, and here’s what it says. You just take your weight in pounds and multiply it by 2/3 and adjust according to your activity level, adding 12 ounces for every 30 minutes of activity (i.e., exercise).

I actually don’t know what weight to use for this one at the moment. Perhaps my initial weight of 123.6 since the new 121.6 pounds is rather a result of losing some of that excess water retention. Baseline I’m getting at 82.4 ounces (2436 mL) of water, then add another 20 ounces (591 mL) for working out I guess since I’m trying to do 45 minutes cardio and then some strength training.

Total water intake requirement: 3027 mL

Yikes, it looks like I need to start drinking some more water. I’m tired of needing to go pee all the time though! I feel like water just goes straight to the bladder within 20 minutes of drinking it. And if anyone was curious, the reason why I list my water intake in mL is because my water bottle has the capacity of 750 mL, and it’s pretty much the only line on the bottle.

Asides from the importance of water in our body, it also plays a role in weight loss too from what I’ve read while searching the internet. Here are some facts that I found on the internet. (I feel like I should find better more reliable sources than some of these, but these are all I have for now).

  • Drinking a lot of water can replace liquid calories, which will cut down your daily caloric intake and help you lose the weight. Remember 3500 calories = 1 pound! One can of Coke has 182 calories or so, therefore  one case is 2184 calories! That’s 0.62 pounds! Juice has a lot of calories too. For instance, orange juice has 110 calories in 1 cup, and apple juice has 113 calories in 1 cup.
  • Water can also help you not eat as much. According to CNN.com, it’s recommended that you drink 2 cups of water before each meal
  • There was a study, also mentioned on CNN.com, stating that people who had a small bottle of water before each meal, loss on average 15.5 pounds compared to those who didn’t who lost 11 pounds within 3 months. (Study Abstract found on PubMed). Apparently they did further analysis, and showed that if you keep it up even after the diet it provides benefits (loss of 1.5 pounds opposed to gain of 2 pounds).
  • Reduce water retention. One of the most common reasons why you have water retention in the first place is due to inadequate hydration. Your body wants to save as much water as it can so it can function properly. By keeping your body properly hydrated, the body doesn’t feel the need to store all that excess water for future use. Clearly that’s how I loss 2 pounds over 24 hours, because I’m sure it wasn’t from the deficit in caloric intake or the amount of calories I was burning or even the amount I was sweating when I was working out.

Another thing that I came across recently was the whole thing about how Victoria Secret models use water to their advantage when they are preparing for a show  (Article Can be Found Here). Pretty much what they do is keep themselves adequately hydrated up until they need to slim down for a show (think 1 gallon of water a day), and then decreasing your amount of water to regular habits 2 days before the show, and then 12 hours before the show to stop drinking any liquids. This causes the skin to “suck in” due to the decrease in water, essentially the dehydration, to give the illusion of being slimmer and weight loss. However, this is just a temporary solution and only works if you’re well hydrated prior. I just thought it was an interesting technique, but not really one for the interest of toning down and losing weight more definitely.

But if you’re read all of this, reward yourself with a glass of water. It’s good stuff.

Apparently in 24 hours I managed to lose 2 pounds (123.6 pounds yesterday), and I’m pretty sure the majority of it is water weight. I’ve been rather bloated lately too since that wonderful time of month is about to arrive. So drinking water helped with getting rid of the water retention in general.

[The Numbers]

  • Weight: 121.6 lbs
  • Water Intake: 750 mL by 11:30am, 750 mL by 1pm, 750 mL by end of work out, 375 mL in the evening = total intake = 2625 mL
  • Work Out Time: 50 minutes – 30 minutes on the treadmill (2 miles – I’m can’t run for the life of me) and 20 minutes playing racquetball with myself (the people who booked the racquetball room I was in showed up)

[The Meal Plan]

  • Breakfast: 100 calorie English muffin with peanut butter and honey with a medium French vanilla iced coffee from McDonalds (140 calories)
  • Lunch: Healthy Choice’s Top Chef Café Steamer – Grilled Chicken Pesto with Vegetables (310 calories)
  • Dinner: Bánh hỏi (a Vietnamese dish consisting of rice vermicelli woven into intricate bundles topped with chopped garlic chives), some steak cubes, and an ear of corn 
  • Snack: 1 granny smith apple with fat free french vanilla yogurt fruit dip

At It Again

Sometimes despite all my ambitions and determination things don’t quite follow through, especially when things compete with either sleep or food. It’s been a while since my last entry, over half the year’s gone by, and it’s about to start the 10th month of the year.

The resolutions as I wrote down for 2013 were as follows:

  • Work out! This seems to be the thing that’s on every year. Hopefully one year it’ll finally stick right? This has been an on and off thing, more off than on, but more on than previous years. I’ll get more into this after I go through the rest of these resolutions. 
  • I want to get out of my comfort zone and socialize more, even though the hermit within me will resist with all its might. The last time I went out, only good things came out of it. So I might as well try and work at it and do more. In the end, I want to take more chances, and live life to its fullest. I’ve definitely done this, and I’ve been burned because of it. I have been taking more chances and risks as a result though, and some people have come to know me as the girl who did it because “what’s the worse that could happen?” Which is all in all a good thing. But with rotations lately, I just haven’t found the time or the motivation (or possess the budget) to go out to do things anymore. I sort of give up on this whole notion right now, it’ll come when it comes. 
  • Be a doer. Since starting college really, I’ve been taking the back seat to pretty much everything. And well, I think it’s time for me to find that drive again and stat getting involved and do things. I’ve already taken two steps in the right direction by taking initiative in my club. Let’s hope I keep it that way! Definitely a doer. “What’s the worse that could happen?” Seriously, a friend of mine said that sometimes she imagines my voice in her head saying that when she’s debating between doing certain things. I’ve definitely gotten myself really involved with Rho Chi. I even went to the Diabetes Walk this past Saturday to do some blood glucose testing for people. AND I HATE doing that sort of stuff. But in the end, it was a decent way to spend my Saturday morning. Definitely got me out of bed early (granted, I still woke up late). 

So that working out bit, it’s a huge struggle for me. Internal struggle of do I work out for an hour or do I go home and eat/sleep. Usually working out occurs after rotations (or at least that was the intent), but it appears that after rotations I get mad hungry and can’t function and run home (or to the store to get food to make at home) to eat. That or I’m far too exhausted to even think of the potential of being on that elliptical for 30-60 minutes, and the comforts of rolling around in my very comfortable memory foamed topped bed seems to be calling me like the Sirens called Odysseys. Oh but I digress.

I’m turning 26 this year. In 21 days to be exact.  Academically and career-wise, I’m content with myself. My skin’s also taming it self a lot more compared to all the other years. I think my skin’s the best it’s been in a while, just hoping the redness fades away with time and that I don’t get any more attack of the blemishes. I finally found a moisturizer that really works for my skin, and it makes it feel SO SOFT! 

I’ve been following Shay Carl’s family vlogs (SHAYTARDS), and he is doing this ShayTober or whatever he’s deciding to call it. But in any case, now’s a good time as any right? So starting tomorrow, I’ll be pushing myself back in the grind and getting myself to where I want to be physically. There’s also the fact that I’m participating in the 5k ROC (Ridiculous Obstacle Course) on the 12th. Below are my goals, and hopefully I can keep myself accountable for everything for the next month at least. 

My Goals for October:

  • Lose 10 lbs (I’m standing around 123-124 lbs right now); I know that doesn’t sound like I weigh a lot, but I’m a tiny person, that my BMI right now is at a 22.5 (Normal Weight Range: 18.5-24.9). So if I drop down to 113 lbs, my BMI would be 20.7 so nowhere near underweight or anything so it’s a good goal. 
  • Lose the belly fat! This is really my main reason for doing all of this. It’s been an ongoing struggle since high school, and I’ve never been able to tone it down. I really want to, so hopefully I can put in the efforts to do this now. Hopefully see improvement by the time I turn 26 on the 21st of October? Maybe?
  • Drink more water! I was actually doing really well with this during the summer semester, but then things went out of whack and then I got off track, and I guess I got out of habit. According to some random hydration calculator I found, I should be drinking 1.9 liters of water. That’s two and a half bottles of my camel back water bottle. I can do that. The more water, the better!

The biggest issue I have with this whole working out bit is keeping myself accountable. So hopefully for the next month I’ll post a blog or something about what I did today, and keep a workout and food log and what not. Let’s see how this goes. Before pictures will happen tomorrow morning, then it begins! 

And It Begins…. Again

P2 Year of Pharmacy school (of 3 Years) has officially begun! Technically, it was supposed to start on Monday, but due to Hurricane Sandy, school was closed and make up classes are occurring tomorrow. Hurrah for the Double Feature of Pharmacology tomorrow! I’m actually pretty excited yet anxious about this upcoming year. I’m finally hitting the meat of pharmacy school, my true purpose for why I’m in school again. Therapeutics and Pharmacology for the next 2-3 Semesters. You can call me the the Drug Expert. Oh wait, make that DOCTOR Drug Expert!

I was sitting in class today and it just hit me that I have a year and a little over six months left of Pharmacy school (only 9 months of that is actually class lectures) and then I’m on my own. I’m utterly terrified. I still don’t know what I’m doing, I can’t seem to get an internship in, nor do I have the motivation to find one again. That feeling comes and goes it seems. But in any case, it seems that time has flown by like no other, and I’ve already made it this far. I’m surprised I’ve made it this far, with how adamant I was with saying that I didn’t want to go back to school and everything. I’m nervous about how this semester’s going to go, the next 9 months actually. There’s so much to learn and I feel like I don’t quite remember everything that I should have remembered, the fact that everything’s really foggy right now scares the crap out of me and makes me want to curl up somewhere and hide.

On Another Note: Hurrah! I’m 25! Birthday was last week (Oct 21st). I can now officially have my quad-life crisis. I think I had more to say, about this point, but then I got distracted and my mind wandered… my bad.